I can truly relate to the acting out, sense of separation, loss, identity, etc. I also am adopted and despite my older years rapidly approaching, it's taken me a lifetime to understand what I've been through. There is so much hidden trauma that society has a vested interest in covering up. We do things like acting out thinking we are "getting away" with it, but believe me we're getting away with nothing. We suffer from this misconception. In my older years in life, I am finally valuing who I am and at last feeling whole inside. I doubted myself so much, and still do and am sure to some extent always will, but I know I belong in the universe, no matter who abandoned me as a baby of 2 weeks born into a Mother and Baby home. I wrote a story about abandonment and feeling whole and at the time I wrote it didn't realise how significant it was to me.