I completely agree, there is a tremendous feeling of peace when you forgive, but unfortunately I always fall back into the victim trap. I don't know whether to forgive or not, deep down, and I think I've always been like that since I was a child. I recall a school session when I was very young, maybe around 10 yrs old, and a close friend said that I was funny (ie) humorous but I didn't know whether to forgive or not. I still feel that way today, being over 40 years older, and even when I think I forgive, deep down, I find it difficult.