This is a truly awakening story from start to finish and everything in between, going through different phrases, etc. For me awakening is always progressing and open to change, moving on. I don't think I've realised how much has changed in my inner life over the last year, and don't feel I can ever go back to many things I've long outgrown. It's the worst thing to do, like going back to a relationship that was always very difficult anyway, for it now to be even worse. That for me was a big awakening to realise there isn't any going back. It's lonely to think of that, as we all need others in our lives, it is human nature, but having the wrong people in our lives is much worse than going it alone. That's been my awakening and something I've got to get used to, as I know it's real.