This is an incredible real story that is very relateable. I don't fully understand abandonment like this, in such a connected, coherent sense. I never really thought that the "theme" of abandonment carries on right through our lives. It's almost like I've undermined a very important part of my life experience, which I constantly struggle to make sense of. In years gone by, babies were left to cry themselves out, and it was wicked and evil. In Mother and Baby Homes, they were often under or overfed and abandoned from the very start. I only found out about over 1 year ago (now in my 50's), I was hospitalised for 4 weeks as an infant, only a few weeks old having been taken from my mother in the mother and baby Institution and been sent to an infant nursery hospital. I was transported to hospital for 4 weeks and returned to the infant hospital. To this day I don't know exactly what happened during those 4 weeks in hospital. I had gastroenteritis but 4 week stay for an infant means something serious, maybe operations. I have no idea of those.